maybe.

It's not going anywhere "good".

Maybe it should end.

Maybe I should not do it after all.

Maybe you did it all this time.

Maybe I should keep searching.

Or not. Never.

Maybe the child is yours.

Maybe the children were yours.

Maybe the children will never be yours.

It doesn't matter now.

Irina.

Is it really worth it?

Would I even be missed?

No, it's not.

No, I wouldn't.

Irina was wrong.

She doesn't know anything.

Kill Yourself.

Because it's easier to erase 1 than 7,376,471,981. 🌎 That's why they've done it. That's why I'd do it.

J.

and he made me remember how much I need someone smart and humble and cute who actually thinks I am wonderful and pretty and amazing. 

.what I want

wedding bells ain't gonna chime
with both of us guilty of crime
and both of us sentenced to time
and now we're all alone

protect me from what I want
protect me from what I want
protect me from what I want
protect me, protect me..

.broken.glasses

because I was born to pay for the fucking  glasses all the damn people around me have broken. well, I've always done and I will do for the rest of my life.

.Thanks

"Noted. Thanks for letting me know?" = "Eh.. I don't fucking care, why are you telling me this btw..?"

Yeah dude, I fucking told all of my whatsapp contacts who are also on fb, and you should be thankful I'm taking the time to.. okay whatever djdidjdjxusns fuck you. Last time I consider you for these things.

.No.Help

Cover my eyes

Cover my mouth

Tie my hands 

Tie my feet

Let the world spin

Let me ignore it all

While it kills me

Awkward.

That awkward moment when you just want that one person to look at you and appreciate what you are.. and you realize that is never going to happen. 

Reality.

If only reality could be changed.. if.. if..